Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Thing Two

The highlight of my day today:

Sharing a companionable bowl of soup and some conversation with Thing Two.

It is so bittersweet, this little baby-faced boy on the brink of becoming bigger. On the brink of understanding the world well enough to stop crying when things don't go his way. On the brink of fewer cute misunderstanding of the language. On the brink of figuring out who Santa really is. The brink is so palpable to me right now. Everytime he lets me kiss that sweet spot at the corner of his jaw, where he still smells like a baby, I feel like if I just squeeze him a little tighter I might be able to keep him from toppling over that edge.....

I know, I know - it is his job to leap over that edge and it is my job to push him over if I must, ....but dang!

It just astounds me that in 8 years he will be hiding in his room all day, playing music I don't understand and emerging only long enough to grab some pizza and pretend to ignore me.

12 comments:

Recy Vintage & Creations said...

I can't even imagine how heart-wrenching Motherhood is.

Beck said...

That's why motherhood takes so loooong - so our hearts just don't snap in half.
But yes - I am poignantly aware that The Baby is going to be three and then four and then off to school. Ouch, my heart.

eva said...

I understand You well. My older will be 10 in March :)
Don`t worry about pushing or not - when his "wings" are strong enough, he will learn to fly BUT he will still have that sweet baby smelling spot. Forever!

Christina said...

I feel the same way. My son is turning seven in two weeks.

Tracey said...

Lump. In. My. Throat.

Craftymoose Crafts said...

Yes...but, if you wait long enough...they do come back to you!

learp17 said...

I have these moments with my four-year-old when she looks (and acts) like such a big kid and it totally freaks me out! The baby is still firmly ensconced in babyhood although I guess we shouldn't get too comfortable with that either because she'll be a year old in February. Boy, there's nothing like being a mom to make you realize how fast time goes. Pretty scary.

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zellmer said...

Kids growing older is the saddest thing in the world. Great post.

stilettoheights said...

this was beautiful, really...very very touching, so bittersweet.

msbelle said...

Awww, it doesn't sound like you will be raising him to ignore you. You're a special mother. I know how you feel though. I feel the same way about Kevin. We do what we can to teach them to become older and wiser, all the while missing the baby that they will always be to us.

msbelle said...

By the way, Merry Christmas!